Hi! So, this posting cycle’s topic is pretty timely for me: “Lost
in the Cornfield Maze.” I actually feel like my work-in-progress has me
somewhere in the middle of the hedge maze in The Shining and Jack’s on the
loose, but on with the story.
Last summer I was laid off. It turned out to be temporary,
but I immediately strapped myself into my office chair, rolled up my sleeves,
and prepared to write my way out of dying in a Dickensian debtor’s prison.
So I wrote. And I wrote. By August, I had nearly a hundred
pages of fairly decent material cobbled together. But at that point, three
things happened: 1) I was offered three freelance editing jobs that I’d be
crazy to pass up; 2) I was offered my old job back; and 3) the novel I’d worked
on for more than a decade and released in July had sold barely enough copies to
pay for my publicist.
So I stopped working on my novel, at least for the ten-month
grant writing season ahead of me. I shelved those hundred pages. I needed a
break from thinking about any of it, and I needed to focus on things that actually paid my bills and kept me out of that Dickensian debtor's prison. But over the last few months, I didn't
forget about the story—I squirreled away ideas and notes as they came to me,
anticipating the month of July when I could dust off my project and finish it.
This July arrived. And when I looked at my manuscript, I got
a headache. What was I thinking, writing science fiction? Or featuring four—maybe
more!—point-of-view characters? With myriad connections? And interwoven past
lives? And a multi-state setting in the year 2060?!
I re-read the whole thing and was surprised that I liked it better
than I remembered. But I knew I was lost. I needed to storyboard this beast—color-code
characters, including their back stories (and past lives!) and physical
appearances and motivations. I needed to outline whose chapter came next, and
what would happen in it. I needed to remember what season it was, for crying
out loud. There were so many loose ends and bits of incomprehensible nonsense
it was like a knitting factory had exploded inside that horrible new Scarlett
Johansson movie.
The big picture was overwhelming. So I lost most of July to
procrastination. Reading. Gardening. Planning a kitchen and bath reno. Having fun with friends and family. You
know, what most people would call living. It was fantastic.
But in the back of my head, I knew I needed to at least
finish a decent chunk of the novel, plus a synopsis, if only so I can send it
to my agent and see if this sucker has legs. It’s the
hardest and strangest and most exciting thing I've ever written. I could have walked away, but it's speaking to me again, and I'm too curious to see what happens next.
PS: Do any of you use Scrivener? I have it, but I felt like I needed to storyboard the tutorial and then pour myself a huge glass of wine and play Plants vs. Zombies until my brain stopped buzzing.
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Jess Riley is the author of Driving Sideways, All the Lonely People, and Mandatory Release. She is currently remodeling her kitchen, bathroom, and novel-in-progress all at once because she loves a challenge.