by Maggie Marr
I am blessed because I am a writer. I get to spend my time exploring story and character and basically doing what I love. On a good day...someone even pays me for it! That's almost like someone paying me to sit around in my jammies and eat chocolate...not that I do that...ever...sit around in my jammies, eating chocolate, and writing. But sometimes...sometimes...even with the best of characters (and the best of chocolate) I complain about writing.
What are my complaints?
I complain that the job is too hard. That I am not skilled enough. That my next book/pilot/screenplay won't sell. But these complaints are basically just fears. Fears that are absolutely, one hundred percent groundless. Because even if the job is hard and even if my skill level isn't high enough and even if the next book/pilot/screenplay doesn't sell I still must write.
Writing for me, is like breathing. To not write is akin to me holding my breath... I turn blue and pass out. Actually I become cranky and insufferable. I've come to realize and accept that regardless of my fears much like I must breathe to live I must write to fully embrace my life. Writing, for me, is how I experience the world. I view almost all my daily experiences as fodder for story.
Accepting that writing is a key component, at least for me, of a happy and healthy life took a while. Oh, I fought the good fight. I thought perhaps I could stop writing. But I can't. And in accepting that I must write I felt a sense of surrender. We don't often use the term surrender in a positive way but I mean it with only a positive connotation. For me, this surrender to the idea that happiness is writing is to fully embrace my story and my place in the world as a storyteller. This was my great revelation in the new year. Funny isn't it, how we live with ourselves for a lifetime and yet we still can learn something new about ourselves each day.
So, happiness is writing. I embrace the struggle. I embrace the story. I embrace my characters. And I most definitely embrace the chocolate! What have you decided to embrace in 2011? I would love to hear!
Maggie Marr is an attorney and former motion picture literary agent for ICM. She is currently collaborating with a celebrity on a new YA trilogy which is a spin-off from a best-selling series. Maggie is also the author of Hollywood Girls Club and Secrets of The Hollywood Girls Club which is optioned for film and tv. Her romantic comedy script The Apology Expert is also under option for film. Maggie's tv credits include; Sexology, Hart & Stone, and The Invincible Maggie Malone. With her producing partner Peg Cafferty, Maggie is producing Backwater with John Schneider who is attached to direct. She lives in Los Angeles with her (ever patient) husband and her two (exceptionally talented) children. You can follow her career at www.maggiemarr.com